I’ve added another member to my tribe.
I’m reading No More Words by Reeve Lindbergh. Reeve is the daughter of famed aviators Charles and Anne Morrow Lindbergh. In this book, Reeve reflects on life with her mother after a series of strokes left her mother confused and, but for a few words, unable to speak.
My bookmark is currently parked on page 34. I may need to put extra change in the meter because what I’m reading in chapter two is not only cause for my own reflection, it’s also prompted me to spill some words myself. Reeve talks about all the maternal responsibilities and concerns whirling–and, indeed, multiplying– around in her head. This is where I felt that kinship of all moms everywhere who seek to properly mother their children.
But Reeve takes her introspection a step further. Higher. She imagines the universe and her microscopic position in it. Yes, her role is important, vital even, but her position in the vast expanse (as for each of us), is infinitessimally small. Her thoughts take on a new trajectory of science- (and science fiction) related associations. Reeve’s interior space exploration caused me to make an association of my own.
Last night I watched the movie adaptation of Bill Bryson’s book, A Walk in the Woods. Attempting to thru-hike the Appalachian Trail, Bryson (played by Robert Redford) and Steve Katz (Nick Nolte in the movie), his out-of-shape trail companion, find themselves stranded on a cliff. That night, with no ambient light or trees or marks of civilization to impede their view, they gaze into the expanse of the night sky and see a million stars. They observe how big the universe is and how small they are in it. Although at this point in my life, that idea is an old chestnut, it did give me pause as I saw it through a new lens.
Instead of viewing my life as insignificant in the infinite span of everything and every time that ever was, considering the vastness of space and eternity dwarfed my worldly corporeal concerns.It didn’t make me feel so small as it instead shrunk my problems. If there are that many galaxies out there and that many things going on even just in this world, why am I getting so worried about all this stuff that keeps me up all night? Certainly my tax bill, my job security, the safety of my children (let alone dentist appointments, shoe shopping, and menu planning) aren’t even blips on the cosmic EKG. When I added to that my faith in the God of the universe, Who is sovereign over all and Whose love for me knows no limit, I found great comfort. I could nestle my pepper-speck-sized self into the map of eternity and breathe deeply. Maybe even close my eyes for a change.
So when Reeve went there with her thought thread, when she went from How big are my concerns! to How small I am in space!, I added her to the list of folks who inspire me, whose words resonate. We are like-minded, and I kinda love that. Imagine. . . finding a kindred spirit in the Milky Way.
This is why it takes me so long to finish reading a book. For more on the topic of slow reading, check out my post on the Little Town Writers Guild site here.